....for the worst mom, wife, self award. At least I feel like it. And the reason I haven't blogged in the last FOREVER is because I have been so busy, stressed, tired, sick and booked lately. Not what President Uchtdorf counseled us to do last month, so now I feel guilty on top of all that!!!! Ahhhh...can I not win!
To sum it up quickly I put my notice in at my work and actually (YES, for all you NON-BELIEVERS that thought I would NEVER do it) am quitting my full-time job. So basically I am DONE with that job (AFTER 9 YEARS!!!) I was officially terminated last week, BUT with that being said I am now a broker for our same company and can make my own schedule, but with Open Enrollment here I am working HARDER than I ever have in my life to help sustain us through the next upcoming year of 2011 when I will work only 2 days a MONTH or wont work at all!
So needless to say it has been VERY hard balancing it ALL. And with the kids and myself being sick, it sure doesn't help when we all are a little cranky. So then I read others blogs of all the fun things these SUPER Mom's are doing with their kids and just feel bad. Then I see all the nice things people do for their spouses, and I come home and just crash OR am ready to hand the kids over if I have been home all day with them. Or I feel like I am not doing enough for my job to help us through 2011.
So as I start to get down on myself, I just remind myself of ALL MY MANY BLESSINGS and to have FAITH that all things will work out in the future and we know we are doing the right thing, no matter how hard it is.
SO I will be out of commission the next few months, but I PROMISE a SUPER update after the new year and will be back on the blogging bandwagon. But yes I am still alive and just say a little prayer for me that it stays that way through the end of this next year.